Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Anger Management

I think I need some sort of anger management classes - although, because I'm super stubborn I'd probably be a horrible student. I know I'd get mad that somebody was telling me how to do something (even though I voluntarily signed up). Not that I can't take direction, I can, sometimes, but the older I get the more difficult it becomes for me to listen to those who haven't been through the crap I have tell me to take deep breaths or count to ten, or whatever. I know that's kind of crazy......but, nonetheless, it's my current behavior. So, I'm probably my own worst enemy right now because I know if I take classes or something, I'm gonna end up getting mad at the instructor and specifically not do what s/he recommends because I don't want anyone telling me what to do.

The thing is, I'm tired of being mad all the time. I want to laugh and smile and play.

Ugh!

If people would just stop pissing me off, I'd be happy. ;) (just kidding)

2 comments:

The Wardells said...

You know, I've been trying to encourage Gabe to find a lunch-time yoga class for you all to attend. I know how crazy busy you all are, but it may help in a small way to get away from daily minutia. Your physical and mental health deserve it.

Paula said...

I know. You're right. It is just so hard to get away and lunch is hardly ever at the same time every day. I have been working out after work, so I'm hoping to see the positive results of that pretty soon.

I also think I need other things to focus on in my life. I'm thinking about getting a part-time job or joining an evening group of some kind - maybe acting, or a singles group for old people, or something. The last time I took an acting class it was so therapeutic - more than any counseling session I'd ever had. Something fun, whatever it is.